Revisiting my "at home wife and mom" title the last few weeks, I've noticed my mind gets flooded with such random thoughts. I go from room to room trying to be "productive" and not wasteful of this valuable time...ya know, in the event I am back in the work force soon. I'm sure I would feel guilty and regret the "projects" I didn't get done when I "had the time"..
My thoughts went from the needs of others I see all around me and wondering if anything I had could be of help to them... to being disappointed at all the "stuff" that we "store" in our home. Realizing some of it weren't NEEDS after all, just wants and now.. they sit in the "donation" box. Because of our "financial situation" I even sat and cried because I didn't make better decisions on how I spent the money at the time.
As I caught myself working in circles... now on MANY projects, I pondered what kind of day Taylor might be having at school.. if Tiffany & Bryson were able to be home today, out of the cold, resting. Does Bryson & Anna have any idea how much I love them? Then my mind was prayerful about creative opportunities Amy & Tiffany are looking into and I asked God to guide them ... what should I cook for dinner? ... hmmm I don't even hear the dryer buzzer when it goes off anymore ... I hope Bryan isn't working outside today.. is mom enjoying her visit with her friends?, what is KP, Bob and the girls doing tonight? ... I cant wait to hear about Marshall's jail house adventures, did Tim think of me when he ate his lunch today? ... lots of thoughts ...all so random.
I have much to be thankful for, yet...I'm sad today. Not really sure why. Maybe I am looking at my cup as half empty instead of half full today. Maybe I just needed to get still, quiet and put my thoughts down so I can ponder what God wants me to see in my randomness. I haven't decided if my cup is half empty or half full yet..so, back to my random thoughts!
My thoughts went from the needs of others I see all around me and wondering if anything I had could be of help to them... to being disappointed at all the "stuff" that we "store" in our home. Realizing some of it weren't NEEDS after all, just wants and now.. they sit in the "donation" box. Because of our "financial situation" I even sat and cried because I didn't make better decisions on how I spent the money at the time.
As I caught myself working in circles... now on MANY projects, I pondered what kind of day Taylor might be having at school.. if Tiffany & Bryson were able to be home today, out of the cold, resting. Does Bryson & Anna have any idea how much I love them? Then my mind was prayerful about creative opportunities Amy & Tiffany are looking into and I asked God to guide them ... what should I cook for dinner? ... hmmm I don't even hear the dryer buzzer when it goes off anymore ... I hope Bryan isn't working outside today.. is mom enjoying her visit with her friends?, what is KP, Bob and the girls doing tonight? ... I cant wait to hear about Marshall's jail house adventures, did Tim think of me when he ate his lunch today? ... lots of thoughts ...all so random.
I have much to be thankful for, yet...I'm sad today. Not really sure why. Maybe I am looking at my cup as half empty instead of half full today. Maybe I just needed to get still, quiet and put my thoughts down so I can ponder what God wants me to see in my randomness. I haven't decided if my cup is half empty or half full yet..so, back to my random thoughts!
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